My Suicide Dream – The Means Of Expression lyrics

I'm still walking this path with these forks in road, but
Which direction to take I was never quite told
Should I forge my own way and get lost in dismay
Or stay alone in this world forever counting the days
Well I keep asking the questions, but the replies have no sound
It's like I'm dead to the world and there's no one around
And the leaves they turn gray as they fall to the earth
That's how I envision my mind a simple cycle of rebirth
Well these thoughts they keep coming, but they all fade away
And my memories trying, but I can't make them stay
I have run it around in my mind till this day
But I have yet to figure out why I still feel this way

This is me
This is what I am
Pray for me
Pray that every time I speak I'm not heard
So that I bleed
So you can hide me
Sanctify my life with lies
Forget what I need
So that I bleed
My path has yet to be foreseen

I'm still dreaming this dream that I dream every night
Well that dream is reality, but it's truth has no light
And with no light there's no guidance only darkness and silence
Only anguish and sorrow, but I can't last till tomorrow
I just want to let it all out, all this anger inside
But instead I'll be silent and swallow my pride
I feel like I'm used even though there's no string
But it's not in my power to figure out all these things
Even the blind they can see, in there dreams they can be
Anything that they want, isn't that just like me
All I can do is my best, but these restraints hold me down
You think your son is divine then look at me now

I watch as the rain begins to fall
And I know if this is the end
At least I gave it my all