My Suicide Dream – Psychodynamic Silence lyrics

My sanity's in question because of my wandering mind
It sinks deeper and deeper as it passes with time
And though I try and hold on, my grasp is unreal
And as it passes me by I guess my fait is sealed
That's why I; lost my faith that I never even had
I had to dig deep inside, but it didn't seem to add
My expectations of life were unbalanced at best
That's why I braced for the worst and laid my assumptions to rest

Neurosis to Psychosis
Biopsychosocial defaults on me
Psychodynamic sees that were all manic
Corporate Americas diagnosed insane
Neurosis to Psychosis
Biopsychosocial defaults on me
Psychodynamic sees that were all manic
Society is diagnosed insane

And all these things crack as there bleeding inside
I step back into the darkness, but there's nowhere to hide
I am lost, I am cold, and all I'm hearing is lies
And if everything is gone, then there's nothing left to disguise
It is all trapped in this moment so indefinitely
But I don't know if I can re-evaluate it's meaning to me
But then again it is true that everything must remain
And no matter what you do it all stays the same

I see how the, world goes round as I just stand by
Time crawls steadily on and I don't even try
As the light signals the end of this trivial maze
An emotionless hand reaches out to turn the page
A flick of the pen and it all starts again
And no matter what goes on I can't get through to them
And if a flick of the pen is all it takes to start
Then I'm appalled to find it doesn't all fall apart