I found out the very description of what it means.
The video begins with a girl hanging herself in her apartment. Draiman arrives at the apartment, to find her dead. He cuts her down and places her body on a couch, taking in what's happened. He then cleans her in a bathtub. He goes back out to the room in which she hanged herself, and looks out of the door, making sure no one is there. Mentally stricken, he takes a gun placed on the wall and aims the barrel into his own mouth and starts screaming. The camera then fades out and back in, showing Draiman restrained by a straitjacket, showing that he could not bring himself to commit suicide.