He and her boy friend had a fight he left her, she misses him and feels really down, she felt more for him then he did for her. The only way shes staying "calm" is cos they never had anything deeper than making out, nothing that meant anything. She says she can't stay because of all the memories, every hateful word that was said in that argument. She tries to get rid of her memories of him, buy washing his tshirt, removing him for pictures. But she wont let him see that shes cried. She doesn't want to seem weak. But she is weak she was driven to self harm, she talks about it at the end and near the middle when she says And if every hole makes a scar "And every scar marks it's place,Then I will never live freely without your trace" and the whole bandage is broken bit, she then relises he wasnt worth it, when she says he "wasnt worth the sting" I love Automatic Loveletter, and I feel very strongly about the lyrics so I'm sorry about the depth.