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I lost all self respect for just to be with her or by trying to get her back. She cheated on me, but for some reason, I can't get mad at her for more than a minute. Since the day I found out all that she had done, I had forgiven her. All I wanted was to be with and I still do. In my head, I thought I had a chance and this was not the end. But now, it seems like the end. She's happy with some other guy and having the time of her life. I am just always depressed and have to hide it almost everywhere I go.