Him. Its just the way I miss everything, the way things you thought would be, are not, what can I do, I look back on what I had and I must say goodbye, its not for me, or maybe it is, its just so hard. I love him he loves me, but theres just something between us that just doesn't click. He stares I stare, nerves are way up there, what to do, follow my heart or my head, I would follow my heart if I could, but I can't, I'm with him now, could never dissapoint him, although I have feeling for that other him that has benn left in the past. Goodbye!