This song was my life. Married to someone with narcissistic personality disorder for 20 years - nothing but lies and a house of cards and he just handed me a letter one day and walked out on me and our 1 year old one day. Turned out he'd been leading a double life with his mistress for at least 10 years and decided she was worth more to him since she was richer. Then he went back and forth telling me he wanted me to forgive him and he wanted to be with me - same things he was telling his mistress at the same time. Took a long time to recover from the devastation and realize what I had all along was nothing but a half life - ghost life with him. "I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed" but since I can't erase the past, better to just move on and never let him abuse my trust again.