To me this song is about creating a personal hell for yourself. Getting into something you know isn't good and yet you do it anyway. And then can't get out. The first verse is a comparison of going off to war and to your personal problem. The second verse is realizing what you've gotten yourself into. Withering away. Means its getting bad. So full of life these lights have drowned me out. Being whole or well or good before you started and reaping the results of your decision. I never thought this would consume me whole. A simple excuse you tell yourself but knowing whats going to happen. The pre-chorus is wondering if your going to make it out. The chorus is realizing how bad it really is and asking god for help. Then realizing that your too far gone. The bridge and is like unto roking back and forth in the fetal position asking for it all to end. Finally the end. Wishing that this, wishing that all this would end. Your personal hell.