I love this song x] it's when you got someone who's hurt you and you hate them but like, you make excuses for them and love them deep inside. It's terrible: you just want to run away for now, forgetting you ever liked them and begin to hate on them. Hating someone who hurt you feels so satisfying; seeing them suffer. But right now you're no where near hating on them to that point, so you're waiting until you can genuinely hate them and feel good.