I met this girl during a game of online poker, after a few months we were madly in love. After a while things got "stale". I never seen her in person, kissed or hugged her. We want to get together but its nearly impossible. After 8 months its getting harder and harder to find reasons to keep going. I never loved anyone so much in my life. We talk 3-4 hours almost everyday. Shes my everything. I want to do more then kiss her but if we do shes afraid she ll "disappear" "end the dry spell" but its not like that at all. I just want a physical reason to remember her by. Shes already got me mentally. We fight alot now 2 steps forward 3 steps back. She can't give me what I want and its killing me. I'm mad because I planned two trips to go see her, and both times I blew transmission out of car. Crashed my motorcycle, she planned a trip and her friend wrecked the car. I just want to be with the love of my life. But she doesn't seem to care. I love Lauren with all my heart but maybe were not meant to be.