Two words yohj. Move on. I know it's easy to say but hard to do and make it happen! Look, you said you've been like that for 3 months. What had happened? You're stagnant as a dead stone. You're just asking many questions to yourself but you're asking all the wrong questions and yet getting the wrong answers. We all do made wrong things and decisions in life. (i mean all of us!) you know why we made wrong decisions? Because we are asking the wrong questions. The right thing to ask yourself is "what's the wisest thing for me to do?" instead of asking yourself "what's the right thing for me to do?". Sometimes doing the right thing aint doing the right thing! Consult God, tell Him you're hurt. And you need some help and guidance. Don't worry i'll pray for you too. :) just keep standing up!