I'm trying to think really, I think he was in love with somone but she was murdered and he looks up to the sky meaning (Heaven) He wants the best for her there but he is scared to death without her. He let her down letting her die. He wants revenge on the person who killed her (Shut your mouth and finished what youve started) He doesent care if he dies because his love is gone forever. (I'm Scared to death and have myself to blame, how did we end up fighting anyways?) Saying that he was scared because she was gone and its his fualt because they were fighting. Shes gone. (This song is a love story) Great song: D