I am so sorry for accusing the church of my own downfall, and blaming the establishment who has never stood in my way but encouraged me to love God and know Jesus. My own heart having such blame and resentment that I can only shed one layer at a time. I feel that as the writer it has taken some time to find the need for seeking outside assistance. The very soul of this writer is crying out for acceptance. I think it is a personal cry for help. A need for being a part of a group or community. Some people are shy and feel strange if they are alone in such societies as the world sees only the individual when dealing with how to treat such a person. In other words being lonely and judging yourself because the world doesn't know who you are. The writer seems to be caught up in self loathing or judgment whether it is outward or inward directing towards others who may feel the same way. Yet the writer is intentional because there has not been such a bold cry towards the church or society that needs addressed. If you are the writer of such things it would seem that you are unapproachable. But this writer is begging to be approached, Wants to be taken to church. It has the trappings of judgment because they feel alone and yet gifted or empowered with a belief. It seems like they have a need to let the world or the church know who they are and that they exist in some manner to please God. Maybe they desire an outlet for this. God gives people gifts, and this writer clearly has a gift. It is undeniable. I feel that there is something more to this writer and it is just a heavy burden waiting to be lifted. Only the church can help this writer, but the fact is they feel trapped. If God gives you a talent such as this writer has, then the writer knows God and God knows the writer. But it is sad to think that there is no place for such a talent. I bet the writer is an ordinary person with an amazing gift that has been stolen for lack of a better word. God may be aware of this and that is what empowers this writer. But it is a important cry to the world. God looks to the future and is recorded as saying "There is no help,no man. Only a worthless one and a helpless one." So his own arm brought his salvation. I think the writer was saying the church is responsible because they represent God and have not reached out to the writer. Or with held them from contributing in a big way.I also know the writer is a woman. Only a woman would be refused in this type of situation. She is unapproachable in the eyes of all. A easy victim, even targeted as to moral accusation and condemnation. Brutal treatment, caused by envy and refusal to assist the Church. This woman is the church of the future waiting to be recognized. Payment is tribute to the Lord, but this writer and there for God is robed. The nation is cursed. The writer is saying release the curse, or we all are judged as unworthy. This writer has been continually a victim of song theft for which is massive and enough to anger God. He demands that the tithes be brought to the storehouse and meat for the table. Wow it is not a cry it is a demand by God! This writer is a victim of song theft. God will get his payment. Can man rob God? MALACHI 3:7 ..Return unto me, and I will return unto you, saith the Lord of Hosts. But ye said, Where in shall we return?
8 Will a man rob God? Yet ye have robbed me. But ye say where in have we robbed thee?
9 Ye are cursed with a curse: for ye have robbed me, even this whole nation.
10 Bring ye all the tithes in the storehouse, that there may be meat in mine house, and prove me now here with saith the Lord of hosts, If I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive.
I don't want to stall anymore. I must complain because it is no longer safe to wait. When we have robbed God. I am guilty. I might be pardoned is I do this one thing and have warned you . I am the one to do it only because I am the one who was given a gift. I wrote many hit songs. Too many.