I guess I just interpret the song different from most people. I looked past the literal meaning of the words, I don't know, maybe I overanalyzed it. . I hear it, and imagine someone who's not been true to who they really are, someone who's been held down for so long by either an addiction or something (or somebody) of the likes, who is determined to take [back] his life, to get back under his own control in order to be able to die happy without regret, as opposed to being pulled beyond the point of no return by said object of oppression. ". . . my sins will be forgiven. . . my choice will save me from this life. . . " I interpret this verse to mean basically 'what's done is done and cannot be changed; mistakes have been recognized, lesson learned; I now can move on. . ' Maybe I overthought it, but listen to the song again and see if you can fit that to it. .