I've never lost a loved one and I guess I'm lucky in that sense but reading all these comments it makes you stop and think when we complain that our coffee is too cold or our taxes too high, but we never realise that we don't really know pain until we've suffered something like this. To everyone out there who has ever lost a love one and to all the people on this site who have commented, I hope that you have found sanctuary and especially to snowequeen I hope that you all know that no matter how much it hurts the little memories you have of the one you lost make up for the sadness. I love you all Lianna.