I totally understand this. I'm only in 8th grade but I was in love with this boy and he got hit by a car and died. We were on and off for 8 months or so and we got in a huge fight and I broke up with him 3 days before the accodent. Then he was jay walking and died on the scene. I stayed in the hospital all night. We were promised. I'm so heartbroken. I miss you Jeff.