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and I hate being alone
I long for that feeling to not feel at all
The higher I get, the
He can't be close to anyone, he just can't. That's because he wouldn't even know what to say, what to do to keep that person close to him. He may think that he's not enough to keep close someone and he's afraid to grow fond with somebody, because he doesn't want them to leave him. But at the same time he suffer being alone.. For him there's no way out and he yearns for that day, when everything will be too much and he won't care about anything anymore, about being alone, about being sad. He just wants to be completely numb.