Soja – Bleed Through lyrics

Every time I pick up a pen
Its all you
And there beside me
In my mirror, all I can see
Is us two, the pages
Turn so fast, and like all old pages do
The words, they bleed trough

Get back in my arms, they're
Just hanging by my side
Losing hold of you left me dry
Tell me where you run to
Where do you hide?
You know you never once
Left my mind
Tell yourself I'm sorry
For the things that I've done
Tell yourself you you've never seen
The barrel of that gun
Tell yourself its over now
And not to run
Just tell yourself I'm sorry
For what I've done

Listen while I'm talking
I don't do it too much
I can't help feeling
That care between us
What ever happened to
The way that it was?
The one thing I can't have
Is what I want...
Who decided that you
Could not stay?
You won't be here by
The end of my day
Cuz I can't even listen
To the words I say

"I swear you never really miss it till its half
Gone and you tighten up your grip trying to
Hold on didn't really appreciate it when its
In your arms and you can relate to every
Word in your song like was I wrong? but
I know I'm right but in hindsight, I
Blame the limelight maybe I just needed
Time to get my mind right maybe we'll reconnect
When the times right trying to think
About the causes was I too bossy- exactly
What the cause is I was told to step in love
With some caution cuz love and shit is no
Difeference in the darkness but love is where
The heart is and you can see the
Blood as it dripping trough the gauzes
So I guess I fell out of love with her smile
And more in love with applauses"

Its quiet in my house
Your silence is my home
And everything reminds me
That I am all alone
Its quiet where you used to be
And now that youre gone
Its not a sound, is not a word
But a dial tone
Its quiet when I'm drinking
Its quiet when I smoke
Its ....... when I'm eating, oh
And I sleep all alone
Its quiet now, it was louder
Then, I stand still like a stone
Only from my dreams you want go

"how did I get in this predicament was I
Influenced by the bennefits cuz I was hitting
On so many chichis, loving you and
Eaving you was the only sentiment but I
Guess I wasn't ready for you cuz I'm
Ubbing your feet, cooking spagheti for you
Taking you to parks, winning teddies for you
But in my heart I'm thinking there's someone
Better for you but my hearts like "no, not this again
Cut it out Blach, you know how this'll end."and I swear that I really was listenning but my ____ was yelling and my heart was just whispering so your know who
I listened to now my hearts bitching cuz he's
Missing you get my eyes staring at some old
Flitchs of you and my nose swear that still
Smells the scent of you and my soul's saying
"damm, she was meant for you.""

Why won't you como back
I'm losing past of myself
I've been wondering, watching
Waiting so long
I've been talking I been listening
I've been writing my songs
I've been haping you've been
Hearing on this radio now
That I'm not with you
But I miss you