Trophy Eyes – Fortunate lyrics

My life
These days
Busy friends
And late trains
A mattress on the floor
In a city that's been good to me

All this distraction from my old life
It haunts my decisions and plagues my mind
'Cause after all
I'm just a kid
Who's aspiration's were never more than dreams
But they still remain

I'm not going anywhere
(Anywhere)
I've fought so hard just to stand here
Overwhelming silence
(Silence)
I found where I belong
I needed this

And as smoke leaves my lungs
From my last cigarette
I'll fight my last fight
In a desperate attempt
To prove that I'm worth it
Worth your attention
Portrayed my rendition
Of a broken boy

I'm so tired of hiding
Behind my pen
It only goes to paper
What comes off my chest
But I can't forget

I've struggled to find a place that I could stay
Because settling has never been an option for me
I'd trade it in to never feel afraid
But everything goes away

I'm not going anywhere
(Anywhere)
I've fought so hard just to stand here
Overwhelming silence
(Silence)
I found where I belong
I needed this

According to me
I'm my own worst enemy
I can't keep a simple promise
Or even swear on anything
The bottle attached to my hand
Proves addiction makes
For a lesser man
And I can't muster up
The motivation
To break away
From this fucking pattern

I'm not going anywhere
(Anywhere)
I've fought so hard just to stand here
Overwhelming silence
(Silence)
I found where I belong
I needed this