Sevdaliza – Do You Feel Real lyrics

Drug addiction is the first thing I thought of. Falling out of your own past, and what feels like when your grounded reality begins slipping away from you. You begin to question what is real and what is really holding you back? what are you? What is your purpose In this universe? Can you ever go back to feeling normal again? Being absorbed in total free fall is the allusion to feeling detached, a symptom of getting high and the long term effects of excessive marijuana use. When she says "I just cant remember how it feels like to function without-" without what? Without the feeling of euphoria which you so desperately seek out because of your underlying dependency? It cuts off because she can no longer understand why she cannot function without it and thus she is absorbed in the total free fall paradox - a frustrating and evil thought loop. Why cant I function? You know why you cannot function, but you tell yourself it is not that serious, that its a waste of time to think this way. Then, guilt consumes you. You realize how much you have changed. How you have affected everyone around you, your family; you realize how people are oblivious to your existential crisis. How can they keep going living life like everything feels normal? and the final conclusion you come to is that you are solely the prop, and that you are put into this world just to embody it, and you then feel as though nothing really matters. You are the world. As you feel that satisfying yet depressing conclusion, soon comes a trigger and your thought loop begins again; I thought I'd silenced you, but here you are again.