Joe Budden – PRAY FOR ME lyrics

I woke up without a heart beat, but I remember we was just in the car deep
Was at a light and got approached by a car thief, and pulled out but didn't ask for no car keys
A loud noise without a voice, but I'm trying to scream out, shit is not fair
I can't tell you where I'm at or how I got here
Surrounded by all white, maybe it's just cloudy
Escorted by two men who knew everything about me
Both of 'em so strong, kept sayin' "Hold On"
Feels like my soul's gone, naked, no clothes on
I know this can't be my fate, I screamed "Wait" as they trapped me in front of a gate
They left no trace, I can see my every breath like a cold day stood before a man with no face
He said to me "Please don't make this any harder"
Who the fuck is you?
"My child I'm your father"
I only got one dad
"Is that a fact to you?"
He left you when you was young, I brought him back to you. You're real close to heaven if you get the steppin'. Now tell me what you've done to deserve to be let in"
Look I'm far from a Christian, not big on religion but ain't done too much wrong my entire time livin'
Never killed, never tried to, know I been lied to, once suicidal, never read the bible
I always been a care-taker, tried to nurse people
At times it back fired, hurt people hurt people
Plus I never used your name in vain, but you should know everything I'm bein' asked to explain
"I know you stole from your mother's purse"
You can't count that, that was way back when
"It's still a Sin"
But I was ten
"You robbed people; stole"
Yeah, and you made me see jail
"But I also seen you lay you're hands on a female. Sold drugs to parents, none of that was needed - Abandoned your child - With every girl, you cheated. Done wrong to people that only want the best for you. Anytime you thought you were alone, I was next to you"
When it comes to baby moms', God, you gave me the worst one
"But?, yo you shouldn't have kept the first one"
I ain't have a job, ain't have a pot to piss in
"But I gave you a gift and you made the wrong decision. Held on to resentments, even when doin' business. I lead by example, I teach forgiveness. You're entry can not be guaranteed - Not when you live with anger, envy, greed, pride, sloth, lust, even gluttony - Everything you shouldn't if you wanna join my company"
Look I'm only human, I ain't perfect
"That I understand, when I take you out of jams, you don't even think the worst shit. And when you do, you never talk about what you can do for me, it's what I can do for you. I blessed you with health, family and wealth. But all the blessings you could see, you still always want help"
Yeah there's been times in my life I needed help to make money but why everything I love, you manage to take from me? Yet you stand there and question a nigga that tries hard and finds a way when you keep dealin' them fucked up cards.
You make mistakes like me far as I can see
I think it's a mockery whenever rich niggas win the lottery
Gave us Bush twice, God I hate to be rude but you let skinny niggas starve, give all beef niggas food
The nerve what you tellin' me, I don't deserve to stay here
When you gave us guns and drugs, you put aids here
Take a look at you, yo' ass is a cold-hearted
The hard shit is you bring babies in the world retarded
I know most my ex's put me in the cell, but how you mad at me when you put me into hell?
"See my child you need gratitude, maybe just a sample. I never give a person anything they can't handle. Don't tell me 'bout everything you had to go through. There's reasons for my actions even if I never showed you. Kept tryin' with you, all you did was hurt me. Still gave you chances to prove that you was worthy. And so I sat with you on the train, I asked you for change, you kept callin' me names. You probably didn't notice, I was the store clurk. You put the gun to me; get money for more work. My child, I know you have it in you too, indeed. Stop. This is not your final call or just a brief stop. Hope you hear my words and understand, so when I send you back you should be a better man. Look at life different. The next time we see each other, there'll be no need for talk whenever we need each other"