ELHAE – HER lyrics

[Intro]
Alice: I don't love you anymore
Dan: Since when?
Alice: Now, just now
I don't wanna lie and can't tell the truth so its over
Dan: It doesn't matter, I love you, none of it matters
Alice: I don't love you anymore

[Verse 1: Elhae]
4 AM in the morning, contemplating on life
Maybe falling back from recording
Took me almost a week to even think about writing
Forcing myself to eat, sometimes I think about dying
Maybe the worst thing I had ever felt
Every tear on my momma's shoulder was a cry for help
And you wasn't there
How you think I was supposed to feel?
I never thought you'd make me feel the way you made me feel
Let's keep it real, my stomach in knots, depression creeping
Middle finger to this lesson my life is trying to teach me Remember when you looked me in my face and said
"Don't leave me."
I kept my promise, now I'm left with nothing but these reasons
To hate you, I hate you, that's what I want to tell her
Just let me say it, I say it to feel a little better
How could you do this? Huh? Claiming people change?
Firing shots at my heart with some lethal range
It's not fair, I gave you the world and then some more
Now every night I ask myself what I'm in it for
What am I meant for? What was she even sent for?
Every single call on my phone I just hit ignore
Feeling like I'm 'bout to implode, that wouldn't seem so bad
I hate to be that nigga where everything seem so sad
I know it could be worse, this is my life
You were my everything, you were supposed to be my wife
But forget it I'm blowing this tree into the sky
Every minute 'bout to cry and you know the reason why
You the one that's on my mind, it sucks I don't want you here
Because you made it clear
Yeah, you made it clear
Sipping liquor with my niggas, getting twisted out my mind
Sleeping every hour of the day, I never know the time
Blowing smoke up in the car just to get away from life
Reading scriptures on my phone, getting close to Jesus Christ
This ain't how I'm supposed to feel, I ain't never signed for this
God, I'm such a nice guy, you know I was blind to this
You couldn't warn me? Let me know she wouldn't love me back
Before I gave her everything and walked into this heart attack
Like I don't understand, people tell me this is your plan
Why couldn't she be in it? I feel like she made me a better man
Someone I was proud to look back at in the mirror
Now I don't even know that person, I can't even hear 'em
Its just hard, I ain't trying to sound like I can't live without her
But I just can't stand thinking 'bout her
Every single hour
Every single minute
Every single second of the day
I just wanna go to sleep and when i sleep, I see her face
And I wake up in the same spot she used to sleep in
A nightmare would probably be a better place to be at
I'm just so sick, I've never been the suicidal type
But god help me as I lay my head on this pillow tonight
I need help, maybe time, maybe prayer
Whatever it is, I need it cause this burdens hard to bare
And if you ever listen to this baby, don't be scared
It's just life, something that you'll probably never be prepared for
Don't cry, cause I know how you are
I wish you well, I just wish you wasn't so far
As usual, I end up with the loss
Hear a knock on the door, make it quick, cut me off

[Outro x2: Elhae]
And I've been here before, I've been here before
And I made it out, I made it out, yeah