Carol Banawa – Muntik Na Kitang Minahal lyrics

Nangyari ang lahat, 5years ago.
Bale fifteen pa lang ako nung mga panahon na yun, masyado pang bata, imature, at puro paglalaro.
Hanggang isang araw, there's this guy who approached me, while my friend and I were sitting on one of the bench seat ng school. That time, hindi ako marunong makipag- usap sa iba. He kept on asking my name, sabi ko "wala" wala akong pangalan. Nahihiya kasi kong sabihin. Tas, sabi niya, tatanung niya sa mga kaklase ko. Saken okay lang, hindi ko naman kasi siya kilala. Sabi pa niya, "wala" na daw itatawag nya saken. So ang akala ko joke lang, hindi pala. After ng klase ko, me tumatawag na sa pangalan ko, eh nalimutan ko na yung tungkol sa kanya. Tas ayon pag lingon ko, andun na sya sa left side ko at ang lapit nya. Sabi pa nya, "ikaw ba si ********, di ba si "wala" ka?
Magmula nun, lagi na nya kong binabati, nginingitian, kinakawayan. Minsan nga pareho kameng nasa 3rd floor ng magkatapat na building, tinawag nya pa ko tas kumaway siya na ang ngiti, abot hanggang tenga. Tas twing umaga, hinihintay nya kong dumating bago sya pumasok sa klase nya. Pag hapon naman, lumalapit sya sa pinag uupuan ko.
Ang akala ko noon, yung kaklase ko yung gusto niya. Tas one time, tumabi sya sa upuan ko sa tapat ng room namen, tas tinanung ako ng mga kaklase ko kung gusto ko ba sya, unfortunately sabi ko hindi. Kasi nga akala ko yung classmate ko yung gusto nya tas iyon ding girl na yun yung nagtanong. Sabi ko Hindi.
Nung narinig nya yun, umalis sya, tas parang galit. Well wala pa kong paki noon, eh. Akala ko okay lang. Tas kina-Lunesan, after flag cerem dumaan sya sa tapat ko, as in dumaan lang siya. Hindi nya ko pinansin, basta tuloy lang sya. Tas doon ko narealize na nakakaiyak pala. Muntik na tumulo yung luha ko noon. Pinigil ko lang, ang dameng dumadaang student. Pero pakiramdam ko nun, ang hirap huminga tas parang me masakit sa dibdib ko.
Tas tuwing magkakasalubong kame, lagi na nya kong iniiwasan, iwas kung iwas. Basta makita nya kong parating, biglang sa ibang direksyon sya pupunta.
After ilang weeks na pag iwas nya, bumalik na ulit sya sa dati. Lagi na ulit sya sa labas ng room namen, kaso ako na yung umiiwas. Twing papansinin nya ko, either isasarado ko yung pinto o kaya naman aalis ako ng room.
Last convo, though di sya mukhang convo.
Tapos na graduation nun ng ilang araw, ako naman magpapasang requirements sa school. Tas, umupo sila nung mga kasama nya sa malapit sa amin. Tas binati ako ng mga kaklase nya, 'hi, wala', ako naman nginitian ko lang sila. Tas sya yung huling bumati, sabi nya:
Ikaw ba si "'WALA', di ba si ******** ka?" bali binaliktad na nya yung sinabi nya nung unang araw na nagkakilala kame. So ano dapat kong i-assume? Tapos na?
So ngayon nga, limang taon na ang nakakalipas, 2015 na, hindi ko pa rin sya nalilimutan. Sya pa rin yung gusto ko. At sa kantang to siya yung naiisip ko.

Grabeh. I'm happily married with three kids. Pero pag naririning ko tong kanta na to, naaalala ko si Edwin M. Ehehe. Kasi akala ko non choosy sya and since may itsura sya hindi ako naniwala na pwede nya akong gustuhin, nagalangan ako sa kanya and thought na lasing lang sya kaya nya nasabi na gusto nya ako. In doubt din ako that time kung gusto ko nga sya. After I knew na may girl na sya. Naka relate ako sa kanta na to. Kasi onti na lang that time as in muntik ko na syang minahal. Still remember him until now. Hope he can remember me din with this song. Ehehehe!

On my teenage year I've started to attract on my opposite sex, we've become friends and become closer together and I believe I started to like that person very much and believe that the feeling is mutual but suddenly I felt that the particular person I like was having a hard time to express (by words) his feelings towards me and so do I. Time flies so fast, we've graduated and live our own life separately, after 10 years we've met again for an event and I felt the same feelings I have for him before but the thing is we both have a happy relationship with other person now. What's on my mind now is remembering that song "Muntik na kitang minahal" and dedicated this song for him. He doesn't know that I like him and muntik ko na syang mahalin and no one knows about it, I never admit this to anyone. Now, how I wish he knew and I want closure for the reason that he keeps appearing on my dreams not once but almost every nighto. And I don't know why this happened. I don't want to talk to him about this either but somehow when it will happen, if magkausap kami ulit kakantahin ko nalang to para sakanya. Hehe.

When an individual reach his/her teenage years, very confused sila sa word na love but since nasa teenage years sila they cannot easily define what love is. On my teenage year I've started to attract on my opposite sex, we've become friends and become closer together and I believe I started to like that person but suddenly.

I always listened to this song. It reminded me of my 3 considered legit past. I have seen they're so much struggles to show how much they love me. But for some reasons, probably a personality issue, I can't do the same for them, and even to my other pasts, I just can't seem to fall in love that easily. To make the long story short, those relationship ended not very well. At least even it took them for a while to move on, but I realized at that moment that I ended the relationship, I started realizing that I am falling in love already but its too late already as they have given up on me. This song speaks perfectly in my case. How I wish I could just send this song to those 3 guys. But its just so tool ate and the pain has been done and they have moved on already and I didn't because I had to let go those people who have cared for me so much! If I could just bring back the time then I wouldn't have bothered on listening to the song so many times! I like the song. It speaks very well on behalf of what I am feeling!

~i don't know if I have regrets in my heart. I thought you're gonna going to wait for me but then nalaman ko na lang pala na nag-asawa kana. Am I the one wrong for letting you wait for me kasi nga di pa ako prepared or talaga lang na napagod kanang maghintay. Akala mo siguro binabalewala lang kita but you just don't know that true loves wait, kung talagang minahal mo ako noon~.

Bigla akong tinamaan sa kanta. It sounds like me na takot ding mahalin ang taong nagpapakita ng pagmamahal sa kanya. Yung takot kang masaktan kaya hindi mo sinubukan. And this is happening to me. There is a certain guy whom I'm falling inlove with, but I'm always denying it to people. Kasi few weeks from now, pupunta na siyang ibang bansa. And I don't think that kind of thing will work. Yung years pa bago kami magkikita. So I'm trying to avoid him this days. Kasi alam ko ring may dreams siya sa buhay. And ayoko ring maging distractions sa kanya. Thank you for the memories. Sana yung smile mo pag magkasama tayo. Ipakita mo sa mundo. God Bless.

Nakakarelate talaga ko pag naririnig ko ang kantang to. May isa kasing guy na nakamu ko dati, kaso hindi ko sure yung true feelings ko para sa kanya, may naririnig kasi ako tungkol sa kanya mula sa iba na lalong nagpagulo sa isip ko. Masaya naman sya kasama, kahit corny yung jokes, medyo kinilig ako dun, and I feel protected kapag kasama ko sya. Kaya lang dumating yung time na parang feeling ko naiinip na sya sakin. Tinatago ko lang pero I already fall in love with him nung mga time na yun. Hanggang sa makagraduate kami, nagkakatxt pa din kmi nun kaso nawala yung cellphone ko kya nawalan kami ng communication. Hanggang ngaun inaasar pa din kmi ng mga classmates nmin pero ok lng kse magkaibigan na lng ang turing namin sa isa't isa. Share ko lang kase sya naalala ko sa kantang ito. :)